the life coach 18

Garden of Jay and Pearly

18

Now I can see you wavering

As you try to decide

You got a war in your head

And it's tearing you up inside

You're trying to make sense

Of something that you just don't see

And you KNOW that you once held the key

But that was the river

This is the sea...

The Waterboys: "This is the Sea"

As Jay had thought after 3 days in and out of bed he decided

that it was enough.

He ventured out into the garden and sat down on the door steps enjoying the morning sun. His body was still aching, but he felt good anyway; being able to sit here in the rays of the giving sun...

He hears a familiar voice in his head: "yes, isn't it a bliss, Jay?"

"Yes, it always is. do you remember that we were called the Sun when we were young?

"We still are, aren't we?"

"Well, you know my angel that I worry a lot. You don't want me to and I don't want to, but it's part of my heritage from my mother."

"What is there to worry about here and now? In this pleasant and quiet summer morning with the sun charging you up for a new day."

Nothing I should worry about in this very moment, L.J., but I am often thinking about this world and where we humans will end up the way we are treating our planet and all that live on it."

"In a way it's comforting to hear you say that, because it involves responsibility for your environment. do you think it will be benefit from your worrying?"

Jay smiles at these words from L.J. "I know that is not beneficial; for anything, but I so wish that we humans could turn our unique skills to something better. We are capable of so much, but we seem to squander it all and for what? Mostly greed for money and more wealth and positions. It's humiliating for humanity."

"Maybe so, Jay, but what can you do about it?"

"Ah, that's the three million Euro question! What and how can I do something about it? Right now I really do not know, but I can think of some answers: I could start acting as a "good" person; bringing people what they think they need, but that would not help in the long run. Being "good" is just a name for pleasing and I think we need something else in this world."

"What would that be?"

" I need to see this in the name of necessity. Me and people of this world need to agree to an agenda where we point to what we have to do to turn our eyes and minds to get this world back on another and more caring track for us all and I mean ALL!"

"Good, Jay! Go ahead and do it!"

Then he was gone.

For the first time Jay could feel that L.J.

left; an empty hole in the middle of his chest told him so, but something else was going on inside him this moment; he could feel an intense pain of loss. Not from L.J. leaving, but something was about to happen that would cause them all a lot of grief...

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